perhaps you may have noticed a slight decrease in the posts department over here?
yea. about that...
i found a loophole around not being able to post from my laptop. this is true.
i can post from school. also true.
i am absolutely, 100% not pleased/feeling majorly guilty about sucking hard in the weight-loss/eating well/exercise department. majorly true.
i've been avoiding posting like the plague. i just shudder at the thought of coming here day after day and posting about how i need to work harder and so clearly am NOT doing so.
clearly, a wake-up call needs to happen. i've become more and more content each day with crappy (oh and i mean crappppy) eating habits i would have flipped out about mere months ago. no good.
i'm straddling a line here. i could go back. really, i could. no one could stop me really. but do i want to go back? do i want to go back to dying each time i climb the stairs? do i want to totally eradicate the progress i've made so far? just to eat junk food and veg out?
i'm doing it. just fucking doing it. no giving up. no excuses.
here on out.
i just wanted to check in, let y'all know i'm not dead. my laptop decided to be a dick, and i haven't had the time to blog at school. i'm still here.
still playing with the same damn 4 lbs since mid january. it frustrates me, but i know that if i put some serious effort into it, it would be gone like *that*
i'm not beating myself up terribly over it. my clothes are bigger, so i know i'm losing something from somewhere, and it feels good. real good.
so my goals for the next few weeks is to bust ass. bust it haaard.
goals folks. lets achieve em.